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    layout: lyricaltragedy
    inspiration: reversescollide

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    28 February 2006 @ 9:22 PM

    // Deja entendu

    Longgggg day today. Our timetable's damn screwed, they put recess so fucking early and lunch like 4 hours later, with chunks of long mundane lessons in between and after, leaving the student population tired and hungry before even afternoon rolls around.

    Chinese test was... Cute? I can't think of any other way to describe it. We had to write a complaint letter gong han style. So impromtu lah I couldn't remember the format and other crap so I copied loads of phrases from the passage.

    In other words, I think I'm gonna fail. /=

    Chemistry test was okay. There was one question none of us knew how to do so we begged Madam Wong (aka Yoda) to give us the answer. AND SHE DID! :D What the hell lah that woman seriously cannot control the class, we'd all flunk our EOYs with her as our teacher.

    At least I would. Unless I get tuition asap.

    Got back Geography results. I'm the only one who misinterpreted the 10 mark essay question and thus got the lowest score in the class, surprise surprise. Don't be too alarmed if the school kicks me out or the IBO expells me from taking their exams in fear of lowering their supposedly "high" standards, cause I'd be expecting that to happen very soon. Waaha.

    Anyway we went to the library to research on our Geography project. Ended up playing Slime Soccer with Kenneth Lui on the computer until some stupid librarian whose outfit made her look like a freaking chrysanthemum screeched at us for "abusing the library's world-class facilities".

    WHAT THE MAMA.

    This school is retarded to the max. Just because now it's some IB World School (coughs blood vomits mucus), they MUST have a professional librarian (I'm talking about those who actually do that shit as a degree), 10 billion other teacher-librarians trailing purposefully behind and hounding on innocent students whom barely even open their mouths to speak, let alone "talking loudly and disturbing the peace of others who want to use the library".

    Professional librarian. What a joke please.

    Did Binomial Theorem for Math today. It proved a soothing remedy for my fucked up day. I'm really depressed over my Geography test. Just because of one bloody statement, I barely passed the question. Dr Tieh even said I had all the points and elaborated correctly, but because I took the wrong stand, I scored 5 marks instead of at least 7 marks out of 10. Boohoo.

    It's not only that. Flunked my Math test, had some rudimentary score for TOK reflection 1, bloody lousy in Chemistry, and all those term reports. Teachers hate me to the max by the way, especially Bernard Low. /=

    All that, my love life, and myself.

    Sighzations menustration constipation.

    ---

    Anyway I went to Queensway with Xinling after school and bought Teva sandals and Kelmer running shorts. Had a great time catching up and stuff. She's the best; the only living reminder in ACS(I) of what my past life used to be. (:

    I miss Crescent so goddamn much. Sometimes I even feel like crying, knowing that the times we had back then will never be experienced again. No matter how much I feel at home in ACS(I), it will not suffice the joys of secondary school life.

    ---

    Okay off to read Lord of the Flies. Thanks Auggy for lending me the book okay!! Love love HAHAHA. :D



    27 February 2006 @ 11:12 PM

    // Telescope eyes

    I hate it when people judge books by their cover, or in worse cases, stereotype. Take for example, the society's perception on people who cut themselves. Everyone has the idea that they are basically attention seekers and do it for fun. After all, it's terribly entertaining to see dark red blood tricking down your arm right?

    LIKE HELL NO?

    Different people express their anger, frustration and depression in different ways. And I don't get why the hell are some of us judged for that. So what if people cut? These are the ones who'd rather inflict pain upon themselves than burden their friends and other people with their problems. They are selfless individuals who choose hold the weight of the world on their shoulders, and should never be condemned nor ostracised for that.

    A friend whom I trusted betrayed me today to 2 people whom I barely know. Now I fear the whole school will know about my so-called morbid antics. What's making me so pissed off about the whole situation is that the 2 guys actually said, "Oh my God, you're one of those emo galz who cut themselves for fun??"

    Burn in hell you bastards.

    I know slitting wrists is something that I shouldn't be proud of. This is why I don't normally tell people about it. Hell, I didn't even tell my best friend I do it because I feel ashamed. This is probably due to what the world thinks about cutters. I've seen Museum of Twits and even friends diss these people to the max. What the fuck is their problem, I don't know.

    I beg you all to understand that sometimes, our minds inevitably react in irrational ways. However, there is a vast difference to whether you vent your rage on other people or yourself. And trust me, the latter is definitely better and more considerate.

    I'm not saying you shouldn't talk to your peers about your problems. It's probably emotionally healthier. However, you have to accept the fact that some people just cannot and do not like to share their troubles with people. This is why there is such a word "introvert" in the dictionary and some fuckers have over-used this word till it's lost its meaning.

    Okay my argument's getting off tangent now. As I mentioned before, when I'm really raving, my thoughts and emotions just cannot be expressed properly into words. I just want to say: Don't ever misunderstand depression. If you want to ostracise people who cut themselves, think of those who punch walls, kill animals, vent their anger on friends and the like. Trust me, they're a thousand times worse.

    Oh, and I'm not defending those attention seekers who cut themselves and post pictures of their wounds on the Net. Because those are really sad people who don't deserve to live on this Earth.

    Anyone who now thinks I'm a freak can go screw themselves as well. (:

    Good bye and good night. Fuckers.



    26 February 2006 @ 12:46 PM

    // Exhibit of the year

    DIARY-X IS GONE FOREVER. Omg this is utterly depressing. My blog, my life... And Delta's blog!! Since Secondary 2... All the memories just gone like that.

    /dies

    Damn bloody sad. But I have to move on, somehow. /=

    Friday

    Assembly was gay. Pat Thong went around catching girls wearing PE T-shirts instead of the IB or their secondary school uniform. Bloody cow also scolded me for having 2 ear holes. -__- Retarded to the max.

    Attempted to DDR. It's freaking gay, but I CAN DO IT, ALMOST! :D I'm going to get myself a DDR mat soon.

    The school gave out free yoghurt after PE. Cheryl and I went to the G.O. to collect a carton for the class with Tim Chan tagging along. It so happened that there were 5 absentees that day, so the 3 of us ate all the extras before going back to class. ;D

    Went for training after school. There was a slight drizzle and the wind was going crazy. Luckily I got to sail with Jessica. We both were total idiots on the Laser Piko cos we didn't know what to do and Jessica kept screaming. Freaking scary, but guess what? We anyhow whack and only capsized TWICE! xD

    Had dinner with the team in Subway @ Suntec City. Jackson followed too, HE IS RETARDED NUMBER ONE. Discovered this when we were waiting for the shuttle bus to take us to City Hall MRT station, haha.

    Saturday

    Got my ass out of the house at an ungodly hour of 7.15 am for training. Supposed to meet Bose, Gerard and Xinling at City Hall MRT Station at 8 am, but stupid Xinling woke up at 8 am. AND I WAS 10 MINUTES EARLY, WAAHA.

    Waited for Sloth at Starbucks and ended up cabbing to National SeaSports Centre because we were freaking late. Sloth ah, Sloth. =P

    Our latecoming didn't affect the time we actually set off, though. Jackson's motor boat had a leak in the fuel box so we had to wait like 2 hours for another boat because MOE was too bitchy to lend us one. /=

    Sailed with Weiling. She gets really high on banana and we had a fun time out at sea. Capsized twice, the 2nd one ON PURPOSE cos we wanted to get wet! :D

    Cabbed down to town and had lunch in Burger King @ Raffles City with Xinling and Gerard. Long time since I've tasted fast food. BK owns.

    Went for piano lessons and came back to watch The Incredibles on the com. Barely even 10 minutes into the show, some unknown number called my phone and I picked up all excited. I looove anoynomous calls, very exciting you know. (x

    Anyway, IT WAS KALAI. She was at her friend's birthday party at Bishan, only that his parents allowed alcohol and by 9 pm, more than half of the people there were getting drunk.

    Kalai: ZELLLLL!
    Zelanie: Omg whose phone did you steal.
    Kalai: I have no idea, it was on the grass! Guess who's standing next to me??
    Zelanie (thinking): Rattles off Kalai's crushes and eyecandies...
    Kalai: MARK CHIANG!
    Zelanie (screams): WHAT??!

    Turned out the whole softball team turned up for the party and Mark Chiang was already wasted and lying down almost out cold on the front porch. Kalai passed the phone to me and I abandoned The Incredibles to amuse myself with Mark's garbled voice.

    It's hilarious to talk to a drunkard. They'd go to all lengths to prove that they're completely sober like try to climb a tree to show they still have a sense of balance, only falling down before they even get there. Funny number one.

    Anyway stupid Mark hung up quite suddenly after awhile because he felt like puking and had to clean up before his mom came to fetch him home, so I went back to The Incredibles.

    JACK JACK'S SO ADORABLE!! Yeah, it's the very first time I'm watching the movie because when it came out, my retarded family went caught it at the cinema when I was nursing a high fever at home.

    ---

    Had Chinese tuition in the morning again. Now to study for Chemistry test on Tuesday. Sundays are getting very routine and mundane, I hate it. /=

    Oh well, shall go for a run later. It's been ages and pages since I exercised willingly okay, please be proud of me. =P

    Buh byeee!



    23 February 2006 @ 9:24 PM

    // Soul meets body

    Hello fans, it's been one of the happier school days ever since year 2006 has begun.

    English with Thiru was slack, as usual. Recess was spent playing cards with Jeff, Jun Shiong and Augustine, as usual also. I kept winning though! Haha.

    Had Chinese at the LT where we had to re-watch important scenes of some weird Japanese romance movie and DO REFLECTIONS wtf. Attempted to study Geography for the test afterwards in the dark with my handphone as the only source of light, but failed miserably because Jeff kept pulling my hair.

    Geography test was... Gay. The subject was gay enough to start with anyway. The duration was like 1 hour 20 minutes for a 25 mark paper, so I spent the first 15 minutes stoning at the construction workers outside the window, thinking I had plenty of time to finish the paper...

    UNTIL I SAW THE QUESTIONS.

    Retarded to the max, and my answers were worse. I hope I don't fail. /=

    English with Nathan in the library where we were supposed break up into groups and analyse extracts of Jane Austen's Pride and Prejudice. Bloody slacker bitch was too fucking lazy to climb 5 stories so she made the 25 of us walk to her. -__-

    Had fun though! Totally slacked off and shared my classic joke (ask me and I'll tell you too!) to some class people. Apparently they laughed not because the joke was funny, but because my face was hilarious.

    o.O

    Drifted to Melvin, Cheryl and Melissa's table and started telling them retarded stories of my life. I made Melvin cry, Cheryl speechless and Melissa hyperventilate. :D

    Sometimes I wonder if I'm actually mentally unsound.

    Discussed TaleSpinners during PC period. We're doing the last scene from Lord of the Flies, I'm so amazed at the fact that I actually watched and enjoyed the movie in Hong Kong last year and I never knew its title, let alone it's so well-known.

    Anyway I'm playing Rogerina. It's supposed to be Roger, but the evil gang consists of girls so they altered the boys' names to girls. I get to kill Milton who's playing Piggy with a fire extinguisher. Woohoo.

    Oh, Madam Neo switched Melvin's place with Auggy's. I don't know whether to be happy or sad. Of course, I'd pay much more attention in all the lessons and Auggy's really smart and cool so all my doubts will be cleared. But class won't be as entertaining anymore. Oh well.

    Watched IB league during CAS. After it ended, it was our turn to play. (:

    Borrowed shorts from Marcus Low (thanks dude, I'm so sorry if my butt sweats a lot) and basically defended. I'm on top form when Tim Seow's playing against me, he seems to be quite petrified of me and I have no idea why.

    By the way, I still suck in soccer HAHAHA.

    Took 74 with the Hillcrest/Watten/Greenwood gang after that and walked home with Tim Seow. He lives really nearby, this is very good news because I now have a going-home khaki and someone to fetch me to school almost every morning! :D

    ---

    I just finished my 2nd English A1 commentry, Wilfred Owen's The Send-Off. I feel mega super ultraman accomplished teehee.

    Ima do annotations for Unseen Prose now, good bye!



    20 February 2006 @ 10:40 PM

    // Bulls on parade

    I was just talking to Mark Chiang online and I just realised there's alot more to people than others can ever know of. Like face expressions, actions and words don't mean a thing. You need to have this special gift of just knowing, which is only possible if you understand the other party well enough.

    It's so amazing when a stranger you barely know just opens up to you like an old friend, though. Shared my problems with Mark online and it is indeed surprising that of all the tribulations that people can face in this world, ours are quite similar.

    I also realised that confiding in another person is one of the best therapeutic methods to make things better. It's okay if he/she doesn't have a solution, but talking about the problem actually helps.

    So if you have depressing moments or suicidal tendencies, just talk to your friends. Anyone would do, just so long as they care. Don't keep everything to yourself; you'd burst from emotion overload sooner or later.

    It's nice to talk to Mark. He's one of the few really nice single guys left and whichever girl who gets him (soon, I hope) is one lucky bitch.

    (:



    19 February 2006 @ 6:56 PM

    // Captain's chair

    I love Sundays. Chinese tuition in the morning, then slacked off the rest of the day infront of the computer.

    Today has been a little more productive though. Met Audrey Chua (my primary school bestie, yay) online and started mass exchanging songs. Now I can't wait to get my iPod Video there's even album art to be uploaded. Wheee!

    Visited Pandora
    after a really long while to discover more ownage songs. My iTunes is looking so much more alive now. (:

    Music is really my life. I can't imagine what I'd do without the sounds of Anberlin, Muse, Jimmy Eat World, The Juliana Theory, The All-American Rejects, Coheed & Cambria, Metallica and other really cool non-mainstream bands blasting on my speakers every day. It's no wonder I'm missing my iPod Mini (which is with Matthew and I'll never see it again) so goddamn much. Sigh.

    Conversations with Liak are also getting more and more retarded every day. Hahaha.

    Studied Geography for the test tomorrow. There are 3 case studies but I'm not planning to go through them thoroughly cause there's too much content. Or should I? Hmmm...

    Freak lah why am I so lazyyy. /=

    OH YEAH I nearly forgot. Something happened that traumatised me greatly today.

    I switched off the air-con and opened the windows because it was kinda windy outside. No more than 15 seconds later, this pair of BLOODY STUPID SQAWKING MYNAHS flew into my study room. Wtf freaking scary can?? Oh my son. I ran screaming from my room and ventured in only 2 hours later.

    FUCK MYNAHS THEY DESERVE TO BE HUNTED DOWN AND DESTROYED. They are the reason why normal, healthy people can get heart attacks okay. Sheesh.

    Haha okay time for dinner. Byeee :D



    18 February 2006 @ 11:15 PM

    // No leaf clover

    Omg Ruiyi just traumatised me with this picture of her friend's boyfriend who looks like a freaking girl. Long hair, pretty eyes and all. This is very bad, I may have nightmares tonight.

    ---

    Cabbed down to KAP to meet Cheryl and her RV friends for breakfast. The meeting time was actually at 9am but as usual I woke up at half an hour later, haha.

    Went to ACJC's Fun-O-Rama afterwards. I thought we could beat the afternoon crowd by coming early but fuck, people are really enthusiastic y'know? -__-

    Plunged into the cacophonous sea of humanity at 11am. Before we knew it, Jireh got lost and our armpits stank of an unpleasant sour aroma and our sweat-stained T-shirts clung onto our sun-baked skins.

    Well, at least mine did.

    Met up with Kalai, Kat, Jiayue, Tommy, Leonard and whoever else and went to LT5's Haunted House. Bloody gay lah, total waste of $8. At least the tour was hilarious.

    There were 3 strangers who joined our group and they were infront. The tour guide led us to this scene where a white figure with blood-red fingernails and stupid long hair (yawn) was sitting at of a dressing table and combing her hair. All was almost normal until she suddenly leapt out from her chair and plunged towards the group, wailing hysterically.

    A series of chain reactions prompty took place after this:

    1) The 3 guys screamed like pigs and stumbled backwards as the unearthly thing crawled towards them, Sadako style (the thing, not the guys).
    2) They bumped into Sherilyn and I, causing us to lose our balance.
    3) The 5 of us toppled backwards and fell on our butts screaming.
    4) Leonard picked up some random prop item and threw it at the thing's head, not expecting it to wheel around and stagger towards him as a counter attack.
    5) Apparently, he was very wrong.
    6) So, he ran for his life and tried to hide behind Kalai (he's about twice her height, by the way).
    7) That bloody indian screamed worse than a pig, making everyone (including the tour guide and the thing itself, for that matter) even more petrified.

    Oh my son. Don't you just love my friends or what? :D

    Anyways Marcus Ng (aka Georgina) came after that so I hung around with him for awhile. We played the rocket game and broke the record for the furthest distance! Sadly, there weren't any prizes for that because we actually had to shoot it into this confined space on the field, not all the way to the opposite side of the track.

    Spent the rest of the day with Celine afterwards. We played this coconut bowling game which is freaking retarded. The prize I won is DAMN CUTE LAH. It's this tiny blue transparent vanity bag with some fluffy shit at the opening part, and it contains a comb, butterfly clips, rubber bands and other hair accessories. And guess what? THEY'RE ALL IN BLUE! (x (x (x

    Met the softballers at Egyptian Knockout (best, I finally remember a stall name) after awhile. Marcus Lim (aka Down Syndrome) is WACKED I tell you. The game was to knock down 2 stacks of cans with 4 balls and he knocked down 18 cans! The best thing was the first prize was an iPod Nano so you can imagine the horror in his face when he was awarded a DISPOSABLE CAMERA.

    Went to some other haunted house with Mark Chiang, Royston, Celine and 3 strangers (not the same ones as LT5, thank God) afterwards. It wasn't too bad, the props were better than LT5's one but the experience cannot match LT5 hahaha.

    Rushed home and out again for piano lesson and had grill for dinner. Super yummy, I feel fat now though boohoo.

    Okay I'm off to er... Study Econs. Bloody stupid Bernard Low confiscated my playing cards yesterday. Now I have to bring another deck to school, SO ANNOYING.

    Nights! :D



    17 February 2006 @ 9:46 PM

    // Dance inside

    Stupid Diary-X is STILL not working so here's a temporary blog before I explode from keeping all my emotions inside. Do not comment how bad this skin is okay, I took the first design I saw in BlogSkin. Gahh.

    ---

    Past few days have been A-Okay for me. I've managed to sell off my iPod Mini to Matthew for $240. However, that stupid twit can only pay me by installments of $80/month. I also haven't got the time to buy an iPod Video yet, this means no musicing while I'm not at home. /=

    Spent my Valentine's Day with my bus khaki, Nicholas Scorpion. :D Ownage surname right! Teehee. Had dinner at KAP and after that we walked all the way into the railway station nearby. Fucking cool okay, always wanted to go there but never had the balls to. We then walked me home, literally. Took about only a billion years, haha.

    OH, interesting fact. ACS(I) boys, especially the GEPs are freaking pro at Dance Dance Revolution! The enthusiastic ones bring their DDR mats to class and the fanatics actually dance along with the people who're on the mats. It's hilarious to watch, I even videotaped one session during recess.

    ---

    PE was hell today. Did push-ups, sit-ups and the like. The number wasn't that bad, but as you all know, I haven't done push/sit ups for like 1 year already since I graduated from NCC. Freaking strenous okay, I feel so noob. )x

    That's it I'm gonna do at least 20 push-ups and 60 crunches every day starting from tomorrow.

    After missing 3 sessions of sailing, I finally got my ass down to Kallang SeaSports Centre today. But the evil coach made me sail ALONE. You know how fucking scary that is considering the fact I never sailed for 2 weeks already?

    Thinking I was definitely going to die, I mentally wrote my will before I set off because it was very gusty and it's only the boat and me. In the end, I capsized about 8 times and drank a lot of seawater in the process. Argh.

    While walking home from training, I was messaging Marcus. The area was very dark, and I didn't look where I was going. Guess what happened?

    I FELL INTO THE FUCKING DRAIN.

    My phone exploded into pieces, meaning the sim card, memory card, battery, front and back covers, key pad, and the phone itself flew in all directions. Dazed, I sat in the drain and looked for my phone parts. Luckily no one saw me fall because I must've looked really stupid and hilarious and they'd have died from laughing too much.

    So now my body's in quite a mess. Arms, stomach and legs aching like crap cause of PE. 4 bruises on my arms due to sailing. Plus my entire left forearm and inner left thigh are COVERED with ugly scratches and cuts from the stupid drain. Wtf.

    Oh well. At least I can disgust everyone tomorrow at Fun-O-Rama. Hehehe.