// Sweet tangerine

The stress level for Promos totally hit me like a rock today after school. Everyone's muggin like dogs while Cheryl and I were at the library editing our TOK mock presentation. Like freak me out man, I felt worse than I ever did for the O's 'cause I know I belong to the category of insane people who can mug from morning to night, 10 hours a day. Now, it's just 3 weeks to the exams and I'm like studying for 2 hours a day, plus my concentration span has become virtually hopeless and beyond repair.

Muggin for O's was fun 'cause you can study with familiar people on a regular basis. In ACS(I) it isn't so easy. I can't help but feel alone and at a complete loss at times. I don't mind studying myself (God-willing, of course), but school ends at what, 5pm every day and when I get home all I want to do is sleep. And when I wake up, there's the dreaded computer staring right in my face. So whatever little motivation I have to study properly is usually gone lol.

I hvae this horrible feeling that my most productive moments will lie in the week when the exams are taking place. I only have to go to school to sit for a paper, which will be about a couple of hours at most, and then I have the rest of the day free to study. That's how the system should work. The school should give us a 2-week holiday to revise for the exams instead of fucking chasing us for assignments and projects and presentations still omg. The students have enough pressure trying to get promoted already and yet we still have to meet deadlines that are set just before the exams. A litte unfair, don't you think?

Nevertheless I'm aware that the problem lies with me. Like now when I'm supposed to study Market Failure for next week's Econs test, I'm like here blogging instead. It's a little therapeutic though, letting your feelings out (kind of). Sadly it doesn't change the fact that Promos are just 3 weeks away and I have no idea how and where to start studying for Econs, Geography and Chemistry.

My router's going insane by the way. I apologise for not responding to people who've talked to me online tonight. And for signing in and out every 10 seconds. The bubble saying "A network cable is unplugged" keeps popping up and it's fucking annoying me to the max.

I've become numb to absolutely everything on the face of this Earth and I desperately need some sort of wake-up call or killing machine to maul me in the face. I don't know what to feel and how to feel about stuff anymore, which is unbelieveably pathetic and depressing.

Maybe I should resort to God or something. But hell, I don't even have the motivation to talk to Him. I so need to die right haha.

On a slightly happier note, 23 by Jimmy Eat World makes me feel better though. Sigh.

// Sweet tangerine

The stress level for Promos totally hit me like a rock today after school. Everyone's muggin like dogs while Cheryl and I were at the library editing our TOK mock presentation. Like freak me out man, I felt worse than I ever did for the O's 'cause I know I belong to the category of insane people who can mug from morning to night, 10 hours a day. Now, it's just 3 weeks to the exams and I'm like studying for 2 hours a day, plus my concentration span has become virtually hopeless and beyond repair.

Muggin for O's was fun 'cause you can study with familiar people on a regular basis. In ACS(I) it isn't so easy. I can't help but feel alone and at a complete loss at times. I don't mind studying myself (God-willing, of course), but school ends at what, 5pm every day and when I get home all I want to do is sleep. And when I wake up, there's the dreaded computer staring right in my face. So whatever little motivation I have to study properly is usually gone lol.

I hvae this horrible feeling that my most productive moments will lie in the week when the exams are taking place. I only have to go to school to sit for a paper, which will be about a couple of hours at most, and then I have the rest of the day free to study. That's how the system should work. The school should give us a 2-week holiday to revise for the exams instead of fucking chasing us for assignments and projects and presentations still omg. The students have enough pressure trying to get promoted already and yet we still have to meet deadlines that are set just before the exams. A litte unfair, don't you think?

Nevertheless I'm aware that the problem lies with me. Like now when I'm supposed to study Market Failure for next week's Econs test, I'm like here blogging instead. It's a little therapeutic though, letting your feelings out (kind of). Sadly it doesn't change the fact that Promos are just 3 weeks away and I have no idea how and where to start studying for Econs, Geography and Chemistry.

My router's going insane by the way. I apologise for not responding to people who've talked to me online tonight. And for signing in and out every 10 seconds. The bubble saying "A network cable is unplugged" keeps popping up and it's fucking annoying me to the max.

I've become numb to absolutely everything on the face of this Earth and I desperately need some sort of wake-up call or killing machine to maul me in the face. I don't know what to feel and how to feel about stuff anymore, which is unbelieveably pathetic and depressing.

Maybe I should resort to God or something. But hell, I don't even have the motivation to talk to Him. I so need to die right haha.

On a slightly happier note, 23 by Jimmy Eat World makes me feel better though. Sigh.